HER, INNER CHILD
I saw her that morning
not you
her
the little girl
who learned early
that people leave
she was sitting there
behind your eyes
watching me move
around the kitchen
quiet
hopeful
already preparing herself
for disappointment
and I wanted to tell her
not this time
not him
you’re safe here
but I didn’t know yet
that I was still learning
how to stay
so I became
the thing she always feared
another person
who saw how tender she was
and still chose the door
I’m sorry
not just to you
to her
the one who risked everything
to let you show up
that morning
the one who sat there
with worried eyes
and decided
maybe this time
is different
she was right about me
before I was
I just got there too late
Ouch. This is incredibly raw and honest.
Volumes. Needed this. Thank you.